Fear

What if I don't want what's best for me now? I've come a long way to finally being at this stage, and frankly I don't think I will ever go back - I don't think I can ever go back. My fears still haunt me every now and then, even as I'm typing this, just the thought of going back - back to how I once was - sends daggers to my hearts.

But lately, as much as I hate to admit it, I'm starting to become a mere shadow of my former self:
My fingers often tremble. My head often spins. My eyes often black out. My body is always just so cold... I'm just plain weak.

I know just what I have to do.
Question is: Will I do it?