so soon

I want to say so many things.

But sharing all my thoughts over here just seems such a difficult task these few days because nothing fruitful is really coming out, mainly everything that is lying in between the lines. It's been days since I checked in here, my comfort zone in which I can find confidement. Hence, I shall share a little something before giving into the arms of Morphous tonight - It's time I stopped escaping.

Yes. Exams are finally over and so far... I've learnt the hard way, to not expect so much. Growing up a confident kid, too often my heart had shattered at the sight of my grades. I've come across this book when I was 12, behind which was written in cursive "The higher you aim, the further you fall". It has stuck with me ever since - a reality-check time after time I find myself expecting more than is capable of my own abilities. I know I've worked for it... But I still wonder. I still do. Wonder. 

It is nearing the first week of FIFA and already it is such a rip-roaring spectacular, such a heated topic lingering at the lips of the familiar faces I see around school. Waking up at 3 in the morning for a few consecutive nights were rather exhilarating, experienced only after 15 years of life in this world. Though the exhaustion slowly sunk in towards the long, scorching afternoons, it was a good experience, I guess. *smiling* Yeah, it was a good few nights... Until our Astro card got taken out last night.
Oops.

Why do we get unhappy? Why are we bound to such emotions that act as barriers to an otherwise happy life? I don't want to see the people around me get unhappy. I've learned, and am still learning that we should be appreciating and being happy... All day, everyday. Hehe... Naivity has taken over me... I'm sorry. 

Just know that... Everybody deserves to be happy. And you do too. You, who are reading this right now. *still smiling*

" If you ask me how I'm doing 

I would say I'm doing just fine

I would lie and say that you're not on my mind "

- Not Over You, Gavin DeGraw

Summer in 11 days...

Form 5 in 8 weeks...

IGCSEs in 11 months...

Graduation in 1 year...

Should I be anticipating any of it? 

Hehe... Are you?

Sweet dreams. ♡