drained

It's so hard to focus when you are so drained, I know you would think it's physically, but no it isn't - I'm mentally drained. And the fact that the input produced never meets the outcome... I'm tired of it, more like furious, at myself, upon seeing all the effort go down the drain, just like that. And I know, once again, I have failed. I'm so angry with myself... Haha. *reality slap across the face* Just did that for you, your welcome, whoever you may be.

At least I've got several things to look forward to starting from tomorrow. Hence am anticipating a productive weekend ahead... To indulge my mind in, I would say...healthier activities, like joining a "24 hour run" (don't worry, it isn't literal, not literally!). And not simply idle in a corner, engulfed by self-blame and hatred. Like how I always do. 

But I'm learning to look past it. Hence, I'm smiling now. *smiling*