Six months ago we'd manage breakfast, or at least a cup of tea in bed before I left and definitely a kiss (we swore we'd never say goodbye or goodnight without one). But his increased workload and my recent early starts have meant that this has fallen by the wayside. I miss them, I feel a bit lost without them. Without it I find that my morning cloud takes longer to lift and I don't function as well. It's weird to think that one person can be the sole arbitrator of your happiness. But he's totally the umpire in our love match; the only person who can calm me down no matter how close to the baseline my mood has swung. He can make me feel like a champion when my confidence has taken a knock. He lifts me over the net whenever I'm feeling low. He - 

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"it's weird to think that one person can be the sole arbitrator of your happiness"