That's the thing about pain, it demands to be felt. 

Okay, I feel it, I feel it... 

But what good does it do?

There's nothing to look forward to anymore, nothing to expect, nothing to wonder. 
I'm just waiting, waiting, for nothing - there's nothing out there for me. 
It's funny to think that all those years back, I actually thought there would be. 

You know, I don't even know how to feel anymore...
I don't feel anything anymore. 
Numb, that's the word. 

It's all just -

I'm just... 

I should study now.

I miss you so much mommy... Where are you?
Happy mother's day.