I just wanna be alone now. This way I've only got my own self to blame, to hate... What did I do? I don't know. I really don't. 

how to fall in love 5.0

" Life is a series of moments and moments are always changing, just like thoughts, negative and positive. And though it may be human nature to dwell, like many natural things it's senseless, senseless to allow a single thought to inhabit a mind because thoughts are like guests or fair-weather friends. As soon as they arrive, they can leave, and even the ones that take a long time to emerge fully can disappear in an instant. Moments are precious; sometimes they linger and other times they're fleeting, and yet so much could be done in them, you could change a mind, you could save a life and you could even fall in love. "

- page 412 & 413

I know, I know nobody stays forever. But part of me still clings onto the hope that maybe, maybe people stay, at least some will...  Right?
And that true love does exist. Like Adam and Christine. 

Sweet dreams ♡

how to fall in love 4.0

"And the poor girl was too embarrassed and too afraid to turn to her parents, afraid they'd 'kill' her. So she decided to do it to herself instead, end the embarrassment, the pain, the loneliness. A permanent solution to a temporary problem. This pain would not last forever; she would bear the scars of the experience and she would remember it for the rest of her life, no doubt it would influence every decision she made from this moment on. But where pain was, healing could come; where loneliness was, new relationships could be formed; where rejection was, new love could be found. It was a moment. And moments changed. She would have to live through the moment to get to the next."

- page 388

" There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, 

we'll make it through "

- Keep Holding On, Avril Lavigne

How To Fall In Love 3.0

 I took a long, shaky breath and directed my words at him.

' Where would we be without tomorrows? What we'd have instead would be todays. And if that was the case, with you, I'd hope for the longest day for today. I'd fill today with you, doing everything I've ever loved. I'd laugh, I'd talk, I'd listen and learn, I'd love, I'd love, I'd love. I'd make every day today and spend them all with you, and I'd never worry about tomorrow, when I wouldn't be with you. And when that dreaded tomorrow comes for us, please know that I didn't want to leave you, or be left behind, that every single moment spent with you were the best times in my life. '

- page 190

" Take a leap in faith and hope you fly
Feel what it's like to be alive
Give it all that we've got
And lay it all on the line "

- Live Like There's No Tomorrow, Selena Gomez

'He won't help himself so he's making you do it all for him. Well, I'll tell you one thing, you can give him all the help in the world, but unless he learns to fend for himself, it'll be useless.'

- page 269


"It was at the end and he didn't like endings, he didn't like partings or goodbyes and he didn't like leaving. Change occurred on his terms when was good and ready. It was the look in his eye, the tone of his voice, everything that made Adam Adam which had altered since we set foot in the house, and not that I thought about it, had begun to creep in since he'd hung up the phone earlier. It gave me a sick feeling in my stomach, because I realised how utterly serious Adam was about leaving this world and I knew, if he attempted it again, this time he would get the job done, he would not stop until he was successful."

- page 305

Don't give up on yourself... 

No matter how hard it may be, 

don't give up.

how to fall in love 2.0

"The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear"

"those once-full kisses had been reduced to familiar pecks on the cheeks"

"I think I fell in love with being in love and now my love affair with the dream is over..."

" Whoa, you got my head in the clouds
Whoa, you got me thinking out loud
The more you dream about me the more I believe
That nothing's ever out of reach
So dream, dream, dream "

- Dream, Miley Cyrus

'You don't know that.'

'Have you ever known something and not know it at the same time?'    

-page 132

“ 我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油 ”

－ 我知道，BY 2

how to fall in love 1.0

For as long as I can remember, I haven't had any quality reading since PS. I Love You as whenever I did have some time to spare, I would find my hands involuntarily fingering the cover of my phone, swiping the scraped screen, refreshing (again and again and again) any app at all for new posts or notifications, only to find none, every other second. Sometimes, I catch myself just simply...staring. Into nothing. Sometimes... How I wish we still lived in a world devoid of technological devices of any form. Maybe we would learn to appreciate the little things in life a bit more. Even a letter mailed from some decent miles away in which contains simply Hey, how have you been? will definitely lift a smile on my face. At least there is more sincerity... More... Of the genuineness of one's heart.

On a brighter note, it is worth celebrating that I have, this afternoon, completed a book as Cecelia Ahern has once again tugged at my heartstrings, making me believe in happily ever afters again, after her success at PS. I Love You. Thus, once again, I would love to share a few quotes by her that I see fit, that I think are beautiful descriptions. This blog could use a bit of pep talking!

If you are reading this right now... Life is beautiful. So please don't give up on it just yet. There is so much more to it if you will only just open your eyes. Ye of little faith. 

It won't be long until you see your silver lining. Maybe then, just maybe...
You might even learn how to fall in love.

so soon

I want to say so many things.

But sharing all my thoughts over here just seems such a difficult task these few days because nothing fruitful is really coming out, mainly everything that is lying in between the lines. It's been days since I checked in here, my comfort zone in which I can find confidement. Hence, I shall share a little something before giving into the arms of Morphous tonight - It's time I stopped escaping.

Yes. Exams are finally over and so far... I've learnt the hard way, to not expect so much. Growing up a confident kid, too often my heart had shattered at the sight of my grades. I've come across this book when I was 12, behind which was written in cursive "The higher you aim, the further you fall". It has stuck with me ever since - a reality-check time after time I find myself expecting more than is capable of my own abilities. I know I've worked for it... But I still wonder. I still do. Wonder. 

It is nearing the first week of FIFA and already it is such a rip-roaring spectacular, such a heated topic lingering at the lips of the familiar faces I see around school. Waking up at 3 in the morning for a few consecutive nights were rather exhilarating, experienced only after 15 years of life in this world. Though the exhaustion slowly sunk in towards the long, scorching afternoons, it was a good experience, I guess. *smiling* Yeah, it was a good few nights... Until our Astro card got taken out last night.
Oops.

Why do we get unhappy? Why are we bound to such emotions that act as barriers to an otherwise happy life? I don't want to see the people around me get unhappy. I've learned, and am still learning that we should be appreciating and being happy... All day, everyday. Hehe... Naivity has taken over me... I'm sorry. 

Just know that... Everybody deserves to be happy. And you do too. You, who are reading this right now. *still smiling*

" If you ask me how I'm doing 

I would say I'm doing just fine

I would lie and say that you're not on my mind "

- Not Over You, Gavin DeGraw

Summer in 11 days...

Form 5 in 8 weeks...

IGCSEs in 11 months...

Graduation in 1 year...

Should I be anticipating any of it? 

Hehe... Are you?

Sweet dreams. ♡

Daddy's Day

" Love is always patient and kind. 

It is never jealous.

Love is never boastful or conceited.

It is never rude or selfish.

It does not take offense and is not resentful.

Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins, 

but delights in the truth.

It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, 

and to endure whatever comes "

Jamie is the truest essence to that description.

- A Walk To Remember

Happy Daddy's Day.

I miss you, daddy...

I know you'll never leave me... ♡

“ 是我想太多

我总这样说

这是唯一能

安慰我的理由 ” 

… 

Right now, I want nothing more but a shoulder to cry on...