Sad

I've never stopped halfway in a race before. But I did just that four days ago. Wrapping my arms around my legs, I buried my head and gave in to the exhaustion that's killing me inside. I can't run anymore, and I know I've brought this to myself. 

I can't run anymore. I can't run anymore. I can't run anymore. Sitting at the stands, I see people running around the field, again and again. I used to be able to do that. I should be the one there, feeling my legs against the soft ground and the wind blowing my hair over my face. But I'm not. And I don't think I will be for inter-house athletics this year.

I've been feeling so dizzy these days, these few weeks, these few months. It's getting worse each day.

I'm weak. Im tired. I'm sick. 

I cried again earlier. And I want to cry again now. 

I want to go home. I don't want to stay in school. 

I don't know what to do. I'm tired of pretending to be happy when I'm not.

I'm just so sad.

"我想要变成回忆,退出了这场生命"