It's been long!

I need a serious reality check here... Is it just me or are we already living in the 11th day of the 3rd month of the new year? It's unbelievable really that, just like that, three months have gone by in a blink because unfortunately I do not feel that I have yet accomplished anything amazing this 2014. However, it has been quite a long time, at least last month, since I posted anything at all in this blog that - I have written down, in black and white, in my semi-informal-diary, in my New Year Resolution list, second to cutting my hair and donating it (checked!) - I promised myself to update constantly.*mental slap in the head* Hence, I shall update it now.

1. I love language. My life revolves around the art of language, from the new phrase I came across in the epilogue of a novel to the lyrics that completed what to me is a perfectly perfect song. Language never ceases to amaze me like gravity to Newton. *giggles* Hence, it scared me when I had actually regretted taking E Lit as one of my 9 IGCSE subjects when it is the subject I am expecting highly of, English aside that is. I struggled a lot with E Lit at the start of form 4. But you need to understand that my class is loaded with remarkable people who bombard Miss Nadia with exceptional questions and answers, while I would always just slouch in the furthest side of the class, secretly hoping that silence could do me justice for two whole periods (1 hour 20 minutes)... But no. Being the cat that was killed by curiosity and miraculously revived again, Miss Nadia always just has to listen to everyone's opinion, mostly in pairs of which Sophie would answer on my behalf, but there are also these occasional times when she very unexpectedly directed a question at me with her indifferent expression to my absent-minded responses. C'mon, how was I to know then just "how did Desai show through the orange ritual the hierarchy Papa created"? But it's language, I love language! Hence, I've been putting in lots of effort this month and I could see my gradual improvement. I got relatively high grades (or rather, bands) for both my English as well as E Lit assessments, not to mention the never-ending prep that she feeds us. It puts a smile in my heart to know that all the 4a.m. days down in the study room and always being one of the last ones to leave the library were all worth it. Hence, I smiled even more when Miss Nadia told mommy that "she's improved so much and she's definitely one of the top students in class". 
"But she's just so quiet!" Oops.

2. Our second last exeat to the end of term 2 just passed and for the first time in forever, I went home. I missed those four walls (remember the four walls?) at home, really I did. But I missed mommy and daddy more. To top this exeat off, my Sunday was well spent in Sunway Lagoon with the 4 best company. None of them started off as my friends, but friends of my best friend. So to be frank, our very first outing was not as fun to me because of just one wrong perspective... They are my friends too. I was no uninvited stranger, neither was I a fourth-wheeler; I was a friend, I was their friends (from the Escape Room to Skytrex to Sunway Lagoon). And the walls I built so high up were finally taken down that Sunday when I looked at them, their smiley faces and genuine laughs. I actually felt belonged. Though I still wonder just how it would be to have such moments with them, would it be as fun? I wonder.
But one thing about Sunday is for sure: I was myself and I was happy. (Okay, make that two things)

And as I was ready to hit the sack that night, this song came to me.
"Cos I had the best day with you today" - The Best Day, Taylor Swift

3. So many things to say, so little time. The 6.45 bell just rang and I'd better shower now. Fast. But there's more to come so I'll be back! That is if anyone reads this.