Wednesday, May 20, 2015

他,她


               因为他,女孩改变了所有原本 “象征” 她的一切。然而,男孩对她的改变始终无动于衷。她原以为的独一无二的爱情,其实只不过是自己的一厢情愿。尽管如此,她还是选择紧握着那一份爱不放手,因为她不想失去她和男孩所拥有过的 “曾经”,更不想错过男孩 “脱胎换骨” 的那一天。虽然她心知肚明那一天的到来只不过是她无尽的等待,但是她还是害怕放手。

              “爱与被爱是一种相互的力量”。如果这才算是爱,那么那一段已好几个月,无名分的爱情,只不过是靠女孩那股害怕放手的 “勇气” 维持下来的。有人曾说过:“奋不顾身地去爱一个人是一件幸福的事”。然而,那种幸福她从未得到过。不过,因为男孩的出现,女孩学会了如何去爱一个人,如何去爱一个不懂得珍惜爱情的人。她的心挣扎了好久,身边的朋友都劝导她说:“放手吧,你已经付出了太多,这值得吗?” 最后,女孩从爱情的迷雾里逃了出来。那时候的她终于选择摆脱那一副爱逞强的面具。当时的她,累了,是真的累了。于是,在 2004 年的夏天,女孩做了一件出乎她意料的事:她放手了。

              放手并不是一种失去、一种遗憾。它并不象征虚弱、也不意味着失败。当你选择释放手中的风筝,让它在蔚蓝的空中翱翔,你是在给予它自由,让它飘流到一个更好的地方,去寻找真正的快乐。

              放手不等于放弃。放手,是一种举动, 是一种爱的举动。其实,放手并不可怕。


“ 当那幸福的号志又一如往常的亮起
笑著,放了自己 ”

Tuesday, May 19, 2015


今晚的天空下起了大雨,滴滴答答的雨声编成了一首美妙的交响曲。疲惫的我投入了床的怀抱,不经意地发现墙上已泛黄了的照片。我心中的涟漪再次被掀起,脑海中的回忆便把我拉回五年前那时天真的我和你。我的眼泪不禁在眼眶里打滚,晶莹剔透的泪水也悄悄地划下我的脸颊。

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地上的落叶随着风的节拍纷纷卷起,毫无目的地飘向四方。我手中的风筝也正在蔚蓝的空中自由飞翔。我的思绪随着那风筝飘扬,飘到五年前,妈妈还在的日子......

我知道是时候面对事实了,我也知道是时候解下风筝的线让它自由飞翔。我感谢妈妈曾经为我的童年撒下她那快乐的阳光;感谢她在我青春期时点燃我心中的火焰,让我找回了自信和人生价值;感谢她就算带走了一切,却留下了那份永藏与我心底的美好回忆。

但妈妈,我不够勇敢,我没有勇气释放我手中的风筝,没有勇气面对这已发生在五年前的事实。

因此,就让无情的岁月冲淡一切吧,冲淡这道烙印在我胸口的痕迹,让我再次享受快乐的滋味......

悄悄的,悄悄的,我听到:“ 孩子放手吧,让风筝在空中飞翔,让你的心在空中翱翔,你值得真正的快乐......”

Friday, May 15, 2015


What's the use of trying anymore, when all the while I'm merely fighting a losing battle? It's time I admitted defeat, admitted to myself that no matter how hard I tried, the outcome would still be the same. I wish the cruelties of reality would slap me hard now and leave its victorious marks upon my face - waking me up from dreaming that I could actually be better. Ironic, isn't it? I want to feel the pain, to know that I'm actually still alive. Because I don't feel myself anymore... And it scares me so bad.

Thursday, May 14, 2015

send it on


A word's just a word
Till you mean what you say
And love isn't love
Till you give it away

Send it on, on and on
Just one hand can heal another
Be a part, reach a heart
Just one spark starts a fire

With one little action
The chain reaction will never stop
Make it strong
Shine a light and send it on


[always a Disney girl at heart]

Monday, May 11, 2015


感觉像是在看着一场电影
白马王子终于发觉了白雪公主的美丽
于是电影的结局开心、浪漫

感觉你就是电影里的那位白雪公主
那位又开朗、又善良、又漂亮的白雪公主
你的心里充满希望、充满力量

也就在那个时刻你发觉到
这只不过是一场电影
而你永远都不会是电影里的那位白雪公主
那位最后找到属于自己的幸福的白雪公主...

不过,你笑了。
因为你的朋友的快乐也相等于你的快乐。
呵呵... :)

Sunday, May 10, 2015


That's the thing about pain, it demands to be felt. 
Okay, I feel it, I feel it... 
But what good does it do?

There's nothing to look forward to anymore, nothing to expect, nothing to wonder. 
I'm just waiting, waiting, for nothing - there's nothing out there for me. 
It's funny to think that all those years back, I actually thought there would be. 

You know, I don't even know how to feel anymore...
I don't feel anything anymore. 
Numb, that's the word. 

It's all just -
I'm just... 
I should study now.

I miss you so much mommy... Where are you?
Happy mother's day. 

Friday, May 1, 2015


love is a plant of the most tender kind, 
that shrinks and shakes with every ruffling wind

but time has not stood still for him, 
it has washed over him,
washed him away,
as if he is nothing more than the remnants of a shattered glass

she does not know what to say,
for no word she can find is satisfactorily descriptive

so she wanders, lonely as a cloud


"so don't lie bright eyes
 is it me that you see
tell me I'm not dreaming alone"

- Against The Current